Brother, thanks for the vote of confidence....but, I suck.
I know it, and spend my days trying to be a better man.
It is ok. I have met some folks who suck worse than I do. It gives me hope that maybe I am making some progress.
If nothing else, I am not in denial. And I am working on it.
Back on topic, though, the moment that I realized that I was not like the other officers in my 18A course was when I looked inside and knew that I would not stab my classmates in the back to get the Buck. Those fuckers were brutal! No loyalty. Well....ok. Some loyalty. Until rating time rolled around.
I blame the rating system with the "top-block." Some of those guys would do anything to get that top-block. Lie, cheat or steal?Hah. Some of those guys lied, cheated, and in one fashion or another, engaged in outright thievery.
We had one guy, a guy who was actually pretty fucking cool named Lee, who wore a Ranger tab throughout the entire course. The day before graduation, he was unmasked as a poser. He never graduated Ranger school.
Well, the schmoes who were running SWC at that time let the muldoon graduate. Yup. He commanded an ODA.
Fuck that. But it really happened.