[JustaSupportGuy]

SARSKI - Thank you for the response. Although I applaud your achievement as a SAR personnel, I have to agree with BLUE on this one. It is more of a QP area of expertises to comment on my possibly ill advised thread. But none the less thanks you.

BLUE- I respect your opinion on the subject, at the same time I was only inquiring if anyone had a similar situation as mine. I know not all QPs made it "first time go" an was just hoping for some input from someone that might have had some of the same reservations. You are in the position that I would love to be, it may just be a different personal path that takes me to get there.

UPLINK- Commitment is not my issue by far. Being SF encompasses what I want to be. I enjoy unique challenges and love to help teach people. Thus the reason I have not gone to OCS, I want to be with the guys and be able to teach and mentor others. Becoming an officer, especially in Regular Army takes you away from that. I believe that fear of failure is my biggest problem, even though I was injured in a unpredictable incident, I question myself constantly. Could I have done more in prep for this to strengthen my legs so that the torc on my knee would not have been enough to injure it, should I have not directed my team to pass up the other team that was struggling and end up dropping their log? That was the first real taste of not accomplishing what I set out to do, and I guess I just took it to heart.

I guess in the end I just need to stop being a bitch and man up. Take another shot at it and deal with what comes of it. I think I will regret it more if I don't go back, then if I go back and for some crazy reason I don't make it again. Baring any crazy unforeseen events knocking me out, I don't think I will have a problem making it to the end.

Like I said before, I respect all QPs opinions because you guys made it to a level that not every man can and where I hope to someday be. I wrote this post expecting it to be torn apart to some degree, but hoping that I could walk away with a little more insight at the same time. Thanks all.