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scared of greatness...
hello all... first and foremost i want to say thank you gentlemen for allowing me to be in the presence of something so moving. i say that because i am a very sensitive individual... all passion, and no patience. but i am trying to gain more of that virtue. please empathize as i reveal so much of my intimates...
to start, i did serve my country after being the child to two soldiers: congrats Mom on your promotion to light Colonel. my time in the military was a bit lame in comparison to the men i have viewed on this site. i joined the infantry and right after jump school got a cushy Hollywood position: While the Old Guard is an honorable job, i still feel that something is missing.
this will be my last year in college and i will be getting a commission thru the ROTC program at the University of Texas San Antonio. as time is coming to and end for my college career, i am beginning to hear voices in my head (hopefully that will not bar my ability to pass the pscho-evals?). most of the time however i find that i am doubting my abilities: and i am quite aware that i am my greatest motivator. its not so much a fear of the unknown, but more so the things that i tell myself once i am in the know: kinda like the questions and answers you ask yourself on a ruck-run or the first jump... understand however; i am in no way a "quitter"... "they" will have to kick me out based on my intellectual shortcomings, medical condition, or so on before i give up.
i am greatful that there is a site like this where i can sit back and take in as much as i want without having to give too much in return. i am quickly learning that you men will answer the questions in my head for me as(hopefully) i will not be afraid to answer my call to greatness: mostly though they are unformulated questions just swirling around looking for answers and solutions - the likes of which that can only be found through loyalty, dedication, and true service to my country. thank you all again for providing such insight to this witness.
quick question: are there many blacks in the world of SF? curious to know what i may be facing as a young african american officer...? maybe that is a rhetorical question.... again please bear with me; don't worry i wont be doing much posting as i am mostly here to gain knowledge.
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