Need help...

[Thesis]

I'm asking for help. I'm still stuck with my class when I was in SFAS, it seems like i'm stuck in a place where I'm being assessed all the time. I wanna socialize within my community here in Yuma, AZ but I seem to find myself a recluse. I try to stay away from big news and political stuff and stay with family and I rarely get out. I know I'm a schizophrenic and I get depressed real easily.

I keep trying to connect my past, the why, and the how for a reason to at least set me at ease because paranoia sometimes get the best of me and being someone that I know who has never been to the field as a SFOA or JSOF. I only met the Rangers and a few SF members. I know that I was with a LRS company which was the I Corps asset.

I keep finding myself being put into place. I don't wanna be disgruntled and end up on the news like one of the former soldier's who ended up in the Florida shooting.

I've been trying my best to stay humble and mind my own business. Sometimes I can't differentiate or even associate with people because I catch myself in my thoughts.

It's always me thinking about the worst case scenarios and things at a hazardous event.

I'm trying to live life, trying to open up and also trying to contribute the best way I can.

I keep seeing failure and pessimism or Murphy's Law seems to be with me all the time.

I have no social group to be with, either than my immediate family members and relatives.

Just looking for some ways to associate with the local populace and trying to be normal.

[The Reaper]

I am not a professional counselor, but I suggest that you seek assistance from your chaplain or physician.

Yuma is a strange and isolated place that may not be helping your situation.

Be careful of who you choose to be your friends.

Best of luck.

TR

[Prospect6]

Thesis,
The Reaper's recommendation of reaching out to the Chaplain could be great.

I am often amazed at the group events that Chaplains are able to organize in free time. My family and I will attend various activities and it's nice that we can dictate our level of involvement, rather than being thrown in.

I've never been to Yuma, but if what you and Reaper say is true, than I would imagine there are many others that feel the same way you do. Don't be afraid to talk about it.

I've never experienced suffering, whether physical or emotional, that at the end of the day didn't make me stronger in some way. If you reflect, you will find out the upside to how you are feeling.

No matter what, I'd give the Chaplain a try. They are a HUGE asset for the times when we are down... But never out.

Good luck, and remember when you wear the "army green", you're never alone.

[Alacrity]

Hey Thesis,

I was stationed at Yuma for two years working on YPG as a single guy. It is not an easy place to live if you're not originally from there, so I feel ya.

I would strongly recommend you seek professional counseling. There are people to help you so that you don't have to suffer alone. Gone are the days when admitting you have a problem got you ostracized. My extended family has had mental health issues and I've seen the damage it can do if it isn't treated. Go see Doc Fish if he's still there (I'm assuming you're on YPG?) and tell him you need to speak with a mental health professional. If you're a student in MFFPC, you can also go to your det leader or the NCOIC. If you're elsewhere, go see a chaplain and tell him you need to speak with a mental health professional.

When I was at 1st Group we had a couple operators kill themselves and it was quite a shock. The Army has built in a lot of safeguards these days to make sure you can get help if you need it without hurting your career. Good luck, don't shoulder this stuff alone.

[SouthernDZ]

Thesis, "normal" is highly overrated.

You have a problem but you seem to already sense that and it's good that you're reaching out. Your issue could be as simple as a slight chemical imbalance, or somewhat more difficult as having to force yourself to move farther and farther outside your comfort zone. I assure you the chaplain's office and BOSS have "get togethers" and trips you could take full advantage of, even if you don't really want to.

Take a chance; I think you'll find that attitude often follows action.

[7624U]

Originally Posted by Thesis

I'm asking for help. I'm still stuck with my class when I was in SFAS, it seems like i'm stuck in a place where I'm being assessed all the time. I wanna socialize within my community here in Yuma, AZ but I seem to find myself a recluse. I try to stay away from big news and political stuff and stay with family and I rarely get out. I know I'm a schizophrenic and I get depressed real easily.

I keep trying to connect my past, the why, and the how for a reason to at least set me at ease because paranoia sometimes get the best of me and being someone that I know who has never been to the field as a SFOA or JSOF. I only met the Rangers and a few SF members. I know that I was with a LRS company which was the I Corps asset.

I keep finding myself being put into place. I don't wanna be disgruntled and end up on the news like one of the former soldier's who ended up in the Florida shooting.

I've been trying my best to stay humble and mind my own business. Sometimes I can't differentiate or even associate with people because I catch myself in my thoughts.

It's always me thinking about the worst case scenarios and things at a hazardous event.

I'm trying to live life, trying to open up and also trying to contribute the best way I can.

I keep seeing failure and pessimism or Murphy's Law seems to be with me all the time.

I have no social group to be with, either than my immediate family members and relatives.

Just looking for some ways to associate with the local populace and trying to be normal.

Originally Posted by Thesis

Hello all,

I am a recently medically retired veteran, and am collecting 70% disability. As a civilian, I am trying to go to college and continue on with my life. I miss the adventure and am in hopes that I can continue to be an officer in the National Guard (or Active if my psych's said that I am fit for duty) through ROTC. I have contacted some friends who are recruiters and the POC for the Arizona State University ROTC and said that they will return a reply after Christmas.

My dilemma is that I did my own research and have found that DODMERB is the deciding factor for waiver's. I have found numerous sources and I don't know which one is the right one. The sources contained in the GOARMY.COM website said that I have to meet physical standards, As for the DOD directive on enlistment and appointment. A history of psychotic features is an automatic NO GO. Yet there can be exceptions.

My question is what are the chances that there would be a waiver for psychotic disorders?

I'd like to express my sincere apologies if I was out of line to anyone a while back (especially The Reaper)in 2009-2010. I was delirious and I was medevac'ed back to CONUS as soon as I was showing signs of depression. I had a lot on my mind during that time.

Thesis you have not fixed yourself in the last Five to ten years what is your deal or did you not take your medication for depression ? You need to talk to the VA and get into a group of other vets.

[Thesis]

Being here for about four years is weird. I'm schizophrenic but I'm trying my best to be quiet in class. The first thing in my mind is just listen to the teacher. It is a very good thing that I got paired up to a group so I can talk to people and talk in English class. I'm putting my best effort to keep going. Even though I know how harsh the world is and all these politics going around I just be as open minded and a sponge in class. Like a barracks rat ever since I was in the military. Being a hermit is my comfort zone. Sometimes, going out into bars and clubs always leaves me with mixed emotions so I'd rather stay at home.

Trying my best to associate with people is what I'm trying to do, but sometimes I come off as apprehensive because Yuma is a hard place, especially the 1%'ers and syndicates that are around here.

So I still be as cautious and be a bystander.

I'm outta the fight honestly and sometimes I feel like I should, yet I'd rather do my best to learn and get a degree for science.

My best regards to everyone, and I'll be cheering from the sidelines.

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